So, now what?

Brand new parents to a 3.5 year old, working at a brand new job, living in a new city, dealing with the courts and social workers. My life became a whirlwind of new stuff and I was having a hard time coping. We prepared up-front to be forever parents to Zach, because even though she could get him back it would be a hard road and with her past it didn't seem likely, also we figured it best to prepare for the long-term ahead. I had to go through a long road of coping with the fact that this new child was in my life and that the child that my heart yearned for would not be my first child anymore. There would never be that full on mommy & me time or being spoiled as the first child. It was a hard road but one that I've come to accept, in fact now I can't wait to make Zach a big brother because even though he has siblings he's never lived with them and as Adam and I both lived as only children(my sisters are half sisters and never lived with us) we know that we want him to grow up with another child.

So our lives have started to normalize a bit but Adam and I both become unhappy with our jobs. I did NOT like the call center life and I was tired of the sales stuff. Adam was unhappy with the way the store he was in was ran and constantly being super busy. Oddly enough the GM at the store in our town had gotten fired and they needed another licensed person in the store so it could function properly without them constantly bringing somebody from another city down. They offered to move him back to his old position but keep his same pay. To us that was amazing! We were still paying our house payment(though we were never able to move back to that house because of it being across state lines) and our rent in Louisville so with his pay raise and the money the state gives us to help take care of Zach it allowed me to become a stay at home mom. It was a really tight budget but because most jobs I qualify for in our town are close to minimum wage it wasn't worth it to work and pay daycare. So back to our hometown we go and once again things work out in the oddest of ways because only a week later we face something that will forever change our lives...